Hmm… It’s been a rough week… month… year?
I’ve been toying with the idea of posting daily again, as it’s been difficult to create quality content on a regular basis and I’ve felt pretty choked up when it comes to writing. With over 10-15 draft posts sitting, waiting to be shared I feel nervous every time I click “publish.” I remember the days fondly when I posted on a daily basis and just let whatever happened… happen. It was interesting, and I felt more connected with you. I could just be “me” without any other super high hopes.
On another note, I’ve gone back to social media (Twitter & IG), sort – – – of. I’ve had mixed feelings about returning, but have decided to try to keep at it for a few weeks at the very least before deciding to jump ship.
I have some big plans coming up, and I’d love to share those (at Chris’ suggestion), but again I’ve felt choked up when it comes to sharing. I’m glad that I was absent during the lead up to and after the election. What a whirlwind social media must have been.
What’s wrong with me… It’s as if I’ve lost my groove to connect with others lately…
This past month has been especially difficult. My entire family has been on a rotation of illness, though there seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel. With two kids in and never seemingly out of illness, as well as two bouts of illness myself and now a back pain flare up, I’ve been on a nose dive. Everything has seemed far harder to deal with. From minor items like the daily schedules to larger items like weekend events, it’s all been a crap show. Combine that with holiday goodness, and I cannot wait for spring.
One thing that gets me through is the opportunity to read other’s stories, like It Was All Me All Along, or reading blogs like Marc and Angel Hack Life. Thankfully, those who share their stories are inspiring me to keep going.
This week running has been at an all-time low. I have suffered from a nagging back pain, due to being overweight and weak abdominal muscles (among other things). It’s right at the spot I injured my back in 5th grade and truthfully was unable to walk for over a week. I can still see that ER room ceiling from that day if I close my eyes… Not enough rooms and I was out in the hallway on a gurney for hours before x-rays.
I don’t like to make excuses. This pain is something that has come and gone in my lifetime, but when I take care of my body and health I am able to keep it at bay. I have not taken care of my abs at all this fall, nor have eaten well to take this weight off. Couple that with all the above and man, I’m in a downward spiral.
My hope is that running dressed as a Santa Claus this weekend will make it all shift in focus. I plan to get a run in before the weekend race, run the race, and get my act together on the nutrition front (and doing crunches… cross-training…).
Despite it all, I’m positive I’ll reach my goals in 2017 and change beyond measure. I’ve changed and learned so much in 2016 without even planning to. With a bit more organization, focus, and effort the opportunities are boundless.
Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content. – Helen Keller
With financial planning, I’m sticking with our current game plan and learning more about the seasons of the economy. While we may not start heavily paying down the mortgage in 2017, we hopefully will be well on our way to saving enough to wave goodbye to that debt in the next five years.
Elections, politics, nor other major upheavals don’t redirect our focus on living frugally, well below our means, and saving for a rainy day. We’ve experienced enough dark stormy days to learn we’re not safe from bad days, years, or economic cycles.